HOW FAR IS DOWN?

This weekend has been full of a lot of highs and lows.  I am hoping the lows are so low because I am sick.  I seem to have caught the cold my youngest had last week.  Sneezing, runny nose, scratchy throat.  I thought I was dying Friday night, I felt so sick.

The good news is that it seems I have found a place to live when we move.  I talked to the rental agent and he told me about the apartment.  I've filled out the application and just need to get it and a deposit check in the mail tomorrow.  I am excited about it.  It seems like a nice unit.  It only has two downfalls right now.  1)  It is on the 2nd floor.  2) It has no washer and dryer in the apartment itself.  Otherwise it seems large and spacious.

It is in a good location and very close to a couple of my favorite places to shop.  Now I just need to see about getting my stuff there affordably and I'm good to go.

My shows went well this week.  They were well attended and I booked a couple more for the next couple of weeks too.  It is cyclical.  I get very busy for a while, then things die down for a couple of months and then pick up again.

I am feeling very down tonight.  There has been a lot of rejection in my life the last six months.  Most days I handle it fairly well.  Daddy H has not been around this weekend and I think with me being sick, I've needed the contact with someone.  I've spent the weekend mostly alone.  Makes me feel like I'm never quite good enough for anyone.

I don't think I ask for much.  Someone to hold me and love me.  Someone who makes me feel like they want to spend time with me.  Someone who thinks maybe I'm special.  Who will tuck me in at night and check to make sure I've done what I need to.  Someone who will just say hello or good morning.

It all makes my heart ache.  I guess I will go and snuggle with Smoochie.  He is always there when I need him.

Smoochie waves goodnight.

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