GRAND OPENING - KAZOKU CREATIONS ETSY SHOP!

Guess what?  Finally got my act together and my Etsy store is up and live!  I will be adding things to it as I make new stuff.  Right now I am experimenting with pendants.  We will see how they come out.  The first 3 orders from my store will get a surprise included in their package.

I make the bracelets in a standard size but also in larger sizes.  I can also custom make anything to your size or color preference so just ask!

Some are made to appeal to the baby girls in us.  Do you see Hello Kitty?

I make charms and earrings.  Marshmallows, Onigiri (riceballs), and sushi for now.

These bracelets are fun to make and no two are ever alike but if you love bright colors this is for you!

My wire wrapped bangles

Some were dyed with mica powders.

Stash containers

I'd love feedback or if you have any questions, please let me know.  Please share with anyone you thing might like my designs.

Thank you!

Smoochie says go shop!

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•.. (,(”)(”)¤°.¸¸.•´¯`»   Baby C

THE LONG AND WINDING ROAD

I know I've not posted in forever. I have a million excuses of course. the kids are home for the summer. I'm stressed about income since there is none. Concentrating on making said income. Working through things with the Daddies.

Daddy H and I have been going around and around. He is of the school that says..."I tell you I love you so you should know I do." Well yeah and it's nice to hear, I mean I really do love hearing you say it but you have to show me too. I think after weeks of this, he has finally gotten it. We had a long talk a couple nights ago and for once he stopped talking and listened. He really is a changed man though. 18 mos ago he was more self centered. Now he's wanting to work on things, wanting to change so that I am happier. He is a lot warmer now and I like him better as a person than I did before. I always loved him and still do but I can see he's making an effort even if it takes a while to sink in.

Boss Daddy is still busy with work and I still don't hear much from him some days. He has been trying harder to stay in touch though. I told him to at least say good morning and good night when he has service, sometimes he's out in the boonies and doesn't . It's kind of scary when I think about it. He also has started to set tasks and things for me to do. I've not found a job and I have all these ideas about making money, so many that a lot of times my thoughts are scattered and I jump from thing to thing and nothing really gets done. Boss Daddy decided that I should concentrate on making my jewelry and stuff and not only get my Etsy shop open but see if the gift shops in the area would purchase or take some pieces on consignment. So I've been cranking stuff out. Here's some of what I have ready to go.  (Don't pay any attention to my messy desk please.)

Babygirl Candy stick bracelets.

Close up

Some kawaii charms

Hinged top stash vials

Two other bracelet designs

I hope something comes through soon. I will post when my Etsy shop is open and of course you can check my adult shop at Nicest Naughties. I think I will run another sale soon so watch for the discount code! Next post I'll tell you about the rainbow lasagna I made.

Smoochie says he's happy to be back.

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NOW WHERE WAS I?

For all my good intentions on getting to bed early, it never happens.  I told myself 3 hours ago that I was heading to bed within the hour.  Guess who is still up?  I get so caught up in things and lose track of the time.

I ran my first ebay auction in years last week.  I had found some old maternity clothes.  I didn't make nearly as much as I expected but at least it didn't cost me anything.  I had to get those packages ready for mailing tomorrow so that is where part of the hour went.  I can't believe how expensive shipping can be though.  A couple of the best items didn't sell at all.  I want to put up some other stuff but I am wondering if it is worth the time at all anymore.  I guess right now every little bit helps.

I've also been doing odd jobs online.  I found one company that will pay me $.02 a word to write content for a clients website.  Most jobs are between 150-200 words each.  It's not a lot but it is something.  I've also been working at Mechanical Turk.  I'm hoping with the two, I can bring in enough to cover the bills while I work on long range projects.

I need to get writing and recording and advertising.  My kitchen is a wreck too.  Since I burned myself, I have been trying to keep my finger out of anything icky so it doesn't get infected.  My kids are picking up part of the slack but they don't do a great job.  The liquid in the blister has finally absorbed back into my body so I think another day for it to dry out and I can finally try and get some good cleaning done.

Back to my work.  I guess my mind is all over tonight...oh how cute is that?

If my daughter were here she would soooo make these for me!

I think as I have gotten older I no longer would make a good employee.  I can do the work, I'm competent and a fast learner.  I am generally warm and gracious but my tolerance level for incompetence and whining have gone way down.  Sometimes though, I wonder if it is old age or just a new attitude about things.

All my life I have tried to be what everyone else thought I should be.  Raised in an Asian family we were taught not to make waves, to be aware of what people thought about you and about what kind of impression you were making.  Sometimes that is good and other times not so much.  When I left my hubby, my ex-hubby now, everyone was shocked because they didn't see it coming.  I hid it from everyone.  I hid the fact that I was unhappy, that he was incapable of making decisions, that he was also incapable of showing love and affection, that most days he would come home, grab a handful of cereal and go to bed leaving me to handle the kids 24/7.  You just don't air your dirty laundry in public, not even to family.

I am done with that.  I want to be what I am, not what they want.  I am a little.  I am a sub.  I even border on slave sometimes.  I would wear a collar full time and not care what they think any more.  Yeah I'm better off left to myself to work most of the time.

Daddy and I got to spend some time online together today during his lunch hour.  Then he called me too!  So I am one happy camper.  On the other hand, he's got a really bad cough.  He works too long and hard and never really recovers from being sick before he is sick again.  I am trying to get him to take some time off.  Maybe come visit me.  *looks all innocent*

Oh look!  I've managed to lose another 30 minutes and still not in bed.  I'd better scoot before Daddy gets mad.

Smoochie sends smoochie kisses!

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•.. (,(”)(”)¤°.¸¸.•´¯`»   Baby C

WARM DAYS AND CUPPYCAKES

Life has been good lately, not great but good.  There is still a stack of bills sitting here that I don't know how I'm going to pay.  There have been no legitimate callbacks on all the resumes I sent out.  However, weather has been warmer, Daddy and I have been good and I feel happier and more productive now.

I received the mock-up for my story in that new adult magazine and it looks good.  They said it will go both online and in the physical version.  I am so excited!  I hope this turns out to bring in a little side money and more traffic and interest to my writing site.  I am going to be working on a couple of novellas for release on Amazon.  I'd like to get that out there before I finish off my novel and put that out for sale there too.

I will admit, I can be flighty.  I get bored doing the same things all the time.  I figure if I have a number of different types of jobs then things will never always be the same.  So I have my transcription I do for that NY Times best selling author, I have my own writing, the articles for the adult magazine, and I'm working on a connection with a content creation company to write website content.  Then I have my singing, I am gearing up to record audiobooks, and lately I have an urge to be artfully creative.  I'd love to make jewelry or maybe sew plus size... something.  I would need a basic sewing machine though and supplies for either or both.  Then I could open an etsy shop.  I am gearing up to start ebaying again too.  If I can find an occasional contract doing website design then that would be awesome too.  A lot of little jobs that all add up to something substantial.

That would suit me wonderfully!  I could stay home and work.  On the days I feel especially little, I can still work but can also wear my pj's or the Hello Kitty rings I got off the cupcakes we had tonight...

20 min later....

I'm back!  I got sidetracked with an idea and spent some time thinking about that.  I sometimes get distracted easily.  One day I should do a post and put down what has happened between the lines or paragraphs that I write.

 “if you cant handle a needy "little girl" do you deserve to be called a daddy dom?” 

Anyway, I was reading a thread on Fetlife last night.  It was asking if people thought the above quote was true.  I was reading through the posts and I remembered something.  When I met the man who would turn out to be my first Master, we talked about kneeling.  I told him that I viewed it as cold and impersonal.  Most of the time the sub was kneeling and the Dom was either standing or sitting in front of her but there was no physical touch involved and that is what made me feel like that.  Not knowing I was a little back then I never understood why.  Even now, I will kneel but it is out of respect and because Master likes it.  It doesn't make me feel especially sub.  Let me sit in your lap or sit at your feet and hug your leg or pet my head and I will slide toward subspace.  I guess the little in me needs to know he is not only there but that he is there for ME.

It was pretty deep thought for 3 am!  It is almost that here now again.  So I will leave you with a picture of our dessert tonight!  I get all the Hello Kitty rings!  I did give them a choice of Hello Kitty or Pokemon and they chose Hello Kitty.  My boys love me!

Mine and mine and that's mine and this one is mine too and....

Smoochie sends good night smooches!

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•.. (,(”)(”)¤°.¸¸.•´¯`»   Baby C

FURTHER DOWN THE ROAD

First of all  thank you everyone who has stopped by lately to listen to me whine and a special thank you to those who left comments.  It means a lot to me so know it is appreciated.

Things are better.  I'm feeling better although I've done a lot of sleeping the last couple of days.  Probably just catch up though, I keep weird hours.  I'll get an idea into my head and start doing things and before I know it three or four hours have passed and the sun is almost ready to come up.  It didn't help that we had that arctic vortex come down and it was cold as all get out and my bedroom always seems to be at least 10 degrees colder than the rest of the house.  I love it once I warm up and fall asleep.

I got excited for a few hours after I received an email in answer to a resume I had sent out.  They wanted me to call their HR manager and set up an interview.  I cheered a little and then did some research on the company.  Another MLM but this time I had gotten the lead from a legitimate job posting site not Craigslist.  That sucked

Daddy and I had a talk last night and this morning.  I think he is starting to understand my need  for him to set up rules and tasks so that I feel connected to him when he's really busy.  He did say he'd join me at my other blog, one I set up just for me and him.  This way I can "talk" to him, tell him about my day, my fears, my triumphs and he can read when he's got time even if it's 4am.  He can leave answers too that I can pick up later.  He knows I sleep with my phone so if he texts or sends me an email or an IM in messenger I wake up.  We will see how that works out.  I am hoping eventually he becomes quite vocal about it and I love that it will be "written down" so I can go back and reread the parts I love.

I am trying to connect more with people who understand or at least accept the dynamic I have with him.  even if it is just lurking, I find that I learn things and that I am not the only one who feels the way I do.  I have this blog and my Facebook page, my twitter and I've been checking out tumblr too.  Next place will be Pinterest I guess, I remember when it first started.  I should have joined back then but who knew?

So here's a question.  Those of you who identify as baby girls or littles and have children of your own, do you let your little out with them?  The more I accept myself being the way I am, the more readily my little comes out to visit.  I am still Mama, my word is still law but sometimes, when I'm happy or sick or fixated on something then it comes out around my kids.  They don't care, they seem to love it but they are very nurturing toward me anyway.  Like the other day I was looking for a new toothbrush holder.  Mine got lost during the move and we were shopping and all of a sudden I had to have a Hello Kitty one.  They had one that I didn't like much and it was expensive but I had it stuck in my head that it had to be that.  So we spent the next 40 minutes wandering around trying to figure out what I could use.  Of course I had to have it then, it wasn't something that could wait.  They were patient even though they were starving and even helped me decide what to do.  This is the finished result.  Not Hello Kitty after all but cute and sparkly and didn't cost me an arm and a leg.

No Hello Kitty but I see Winnie and Minnie!

Anyway, here I go again, it's after 4 am.  I'd better get to bed.

Smoochie says sweet dreams!

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•.. (,(”)(”)¤°.¸¸.•´¯`»   Baby C