NOW WHERE WAS I?

For all my good intentions on getting to bed early, it never happens.  I told myself 3 hours ago that I was heading to bed within the hour.  Guess who is still up?  I get so caught up in things and lose track of the time.

I ran my first ebay auction in years last week.  I had found some old maternity clothes.  I didn't make nearly as much as I expected but at least it didn't cost me anything.  I had to get those packages ready for mailing tomorrow so that is where part of the hour went.  I can't believe how expensive shipping can be though.  A couple of the best items didn't sell at all.  I want to put up some other stuff but I am wondering if it is worth the time at all anymore.  I guess right now every little bit helps.

I've also been doing odd jobs online.  I found one company that will pay me $.02 a word to write content for a clients website.  Most jobs are between 150-200 words each.  It's not a lot but it is something.  I've also been working at Mechanical Turk.  I'm hoping with the two, I can bring in enough to cover the bills while I work on long range projects.

I need to get writing and recording and advertising.  My kitchen is a wreck too.  Since I burned myself, I have been trying to keep my finger out of anything icky so it doesn't get infected.  My kids are picking up part of the slack but they don't do a great job.  The liquid in the blister has finally absorbed back into my body so I think another day for it to dry out and I can finally try and get some good cleaning done.

Back to my work.  I guess my mind is all over tonight...oh how cute is that?

If my daughter were here she would soooo make these for me!

I think as I have gotten older I no longer would make a good employee.  I can do the work, I'm competent and a fast learner.  I am generally warm and gracious but my tolerance level for incompetence and whining have gone way down.  Sometimes though, I wonder if it is old age or just a new attitude about things.

All my life I have tried to be what everyone else thought I should be.  Raised in an Asian family we were taught not to make waves, to be aware of what people thought about you and about what kind of impression you were making.  Sometimes that is good and other times not so much.  When I left my hubby, my ex-hubby now, everyone was shocked because they didn't see it coming.  I hid it from everyone.  I hid the fact that I was unhappy, that he was incapable of making decisions, that he was also incapable of showing love and affection, that most days he would come home, grab a handful of cereal and go to bed leaving me to handle the kids 24/7.  You just don't air your dirty laundry in public, not even to family.

I am done with that.  I want to be what I am, not what they want.  I am a little.  I am a sub.  I even border on slave sometimes.  I would wear a collar full time and not care what they think any more.  Yeah I'm better off left to myself to work most of the time.

Daddy and I got to spend some time online together today during his lunch hour.  Then he called me too!  So I am one happy camper.  On the other hand, he's got a really bad cough.  He works too long and hard and never really recovers from being sick before he is sick again.  I am trying to get him to take some time off.  Maybe come visit me.  *looks all innocent*

Oh look!  I've managed to lose another 30 minutes and still not in bed.  I'd better scoot before Daddy gets mad.

Smoochie sends smoochie kisses!

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