TOO MUCH

Still been under the weather the last few days although feeling better.  The weather has been nicer so I'm not freezing at night right now.  It is cold in my bedroom, just the way I love it, but not achingly cold.

Nothing on the job front yet but I did answer a call for adult writers.  Evidently there is a new adult magazine starting up in February and they need adult content.  I sent them a story and they loved it and will put it in the first issue,  which goes to print next week.  No pay for it yet but I will get trackbacks to my writing site and the possibility of pay down the road.  Also I will have something new to put on my resume and it will hopefully bring in some new leads.

I don't know what it is about me and daddy.  I am usually very sub with "the One" and I am with Daddy mostly but when I get riled up and upset with him I can go ballistic.  Yelling at him on messenger or in text.  All my past men would not believe it was the same woman.  I've never done anything like this before.  I am actually very surprised he came back to me and that he has stayed.  Grant it my rants are well deserved but it is so outside of my character it even scares me sometimes.  

I did have a long talk with Daddy's best friend last night.  He assured me that Daddy needs me and that he loves me.  I realized after talking to him that I need to stop ranting at Daddy.  When he is away and can't contact me and then i fill his messenger with my yelling then he is defensive when he gets back and we get no time to really talk.  So I am trying to be more patient and understanding.  To just tell him that I love him and see what happens when he has time to talk to me.  It worked tonight!  He popped on and although he was busy with some business too, he took time in-between to talk to me a bit.  So I am a happy little girl and will sleep well tonight.

Part of keeping calm is trying to keep myself busy.  One of the things I did was to join Fetlife.  I've been lurking and visiting groups.  Introduced myself to a few today.  It is interesting to see the different kinks out there and also to realize how popular your particular kink is.  It is good to read what other baby girls write and be able to connect with that right away.  I learned some new things too.

Possible TMI Alert!!

The past eight months or so, I've been shaving "down there".  Being a BBW it has not been easy.  I have to do it all by feel and although I've gotten better, I still find spots i miss especially in the more sensitive areas, plus I hate the stubble.  Today I learned about sugaring!  I found out you can make the sugaring paste with household ingredients and even the application and removal look fairly easy.  Icing on the cake is that I won't be in danger of cutting anything off!  I can't wait to try it!  There are some excellent YouTubes on it, both how to make it and how to use it.  I will try it in the next couple of days.  I like to take care of it when the kids aren't home to avoid a walk in and questions. I'll let you know how it went.

Anyway, I've been in a musical mood today so want to share one of my fav songs with you.  I love these ladies!

Smoochie blows you all a kiss goodnight!

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