LOVE TAKES TIME

I am feeling better today.  Things have not resolved with the friend I had the argument with yesterday but I don't feel as if I am to blame for this one.  So even though I feel bad that there are bad feelings between us right now, I am leaving it up to him to make the first move.

As for the new man in my life, I guess I need to give him a "name" because it looks like he will be around at least for a bit more.  I will just call him "M" for now.

I was missing M as I'd not seen or heard from him since Thursday morning.  After the argument with a couple of friends yesterday (on minor), I was in dire need of a cuddle.  We finally got to spend a little time together late tonight.  I got my cuddle and some clarification on a past event.

A few days ago I posed a question to him.  I asked him if there was love and in what capacity.  When he asked for clarification I said that some Doms love their girls as a possession and others like a partner.  His answer was "I like you as a possesion", which didn't sit easy with me.  (See yesterdays post as to why)  I have been mulling over those words for a couple of days.

Everything about this man feels right.  There were no red flags or nagging thoughts in my mind until he said those words.  I want to be loved and feel loved but was it worth losing everything else he offered?

I wasn't going to say anything but in his presence tonight I felt the need to speak up.  I told him his statement bothered me and I told him why.  His answer was so simple.

"Love doesn't just happen."

Duh!  *Slaps self on the forehead.*  We really haven't known each other for that long.  It is the same in any relationship.  You start to like someone for their looks, or the way they make you laugh.  You want to spend time with them.  It is just that he wants me for himself and the Dom in him is going to make that happen.  The love itself takes time to grow.

Doesn't matter what kind of relationship

I can live with that.  It is nice feeling wanted.  It is nice knowing he wants to spend time with me and that he enjoys our time together.  It is nice being taken care of and protected.  I am not ready yet to make a full commitment and he understands that and won't push or rush me.  He knows that it has to be right for both of us and if it is, it will happen.  Until then, we'll get to learn about each other and determine if we are a good fit and can make each other happy.

So tonight, I am a happy baby girl.

Smoochie waves goodnight!

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