ON THIS CHRISTMAS EVE

The house is mostly quiet.  Kids are in bed though not sleeping yet.  We had Christmas eve dinner and they were happy with it so that's a plus.  Presents from their grandparents and sister are not wrapped yet and neither are the meager stocking presents I managed to scrape up.  Stocking presents come from Santa in our house.

There are no decorations up.  My youngest son brought home the crud again this year so I have been in bed sick most of the day.  I did manage to put together a batch of shortbread cookies though.

There is an immense sadness and a heaviness in my heart this holiday season.  I am tired of the struggle just to keep a roof over our heads.  Still no job offers though I've sent out many applications and resumes.  I know it may just be the season and hope things will pick up after the new year.  

I am desperately lonely.  I had hoped this move would alleviate some of that but I think because I expected it to and it hasn't happened then loneliness is worse.  I have Daddy H but he has been working long hours and has his family to visit, parents and siblings, he hasn't been around much.  I've not really seen him since Thursday.  We've talked on Yahoo briefly but that's it.

I wish

Of course being sick doesn't help.  Sore throat, congestion, ears get plugged up and it's settling into my chest so coughing now.  I have a show tomorrow night and it doesn't look like I will be able to make it.

I want to just go to bed but need to wait until the kids are asleep to wrap and put things out.  Leaves a lot of time for ruminating and throwing a big pity party for myself.  LOL  I know that is what it is  but right now, I don't care.  It's MY party and I'll do what I want to!

I hope you are all having an amazing Christmas with your family and friends.  Drink a little eggnog for me okay?

Smoochie sends a Christmas kiss!

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