CHECKING IN

It has been a hectic few days.  Kids were feeling a little sick, I had my shows and finally some transcription to do.  I've not been sleeping well most nights also.  The few hours of decent sleep I have are all thanks to my special friend.

No wonder I can't sleep!

Ex-dom is still hanging around.  He is in a deep depression after losing his current girl and me telling him I won't go back to him.  I know I shouldn't but I feel bad that he is unhappy and that I am partly the cause of that, even though I am right.  I still fight myself to stay strong and not give in.  At the same time I do want him to be happy and want to stay friends.

My special friend is turning out to be the most stable man in my life right now.  He is there for hugs and snuggles.  He lets me be the little, which I am more and more lately.  He tries to get me to do the right things like sleep and take the boys swimming when I'm too lazy to do it.  We give each other room to do our own thing but he shares what he has done or is doing with me.  Makes me feel special.  

I love him to death and it feels so natural to me to call him "Daddy".  He is creative and intense and nurturing.  He is fun and takes me to see new things sometimes.  When he kisses my neck or calls me baby girl, I melt.  Sometimes I get too excited about things but he can tell me to be quiet without hurting my feelings.

Can you tell I think the world of him?  I know I'm just sort of rambling because I am dead tired and falling asleep but I wanted to post something since I haven't for a couple of days.

I am off to bed.  Hope you all have sweet dreams.  Smoochie says good night too!

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