It has been one of those days. Once you give someone your submission, even after the relationship is over, it is hard to turn your back on them or push them away. At least for me it is. I was/am lonely and he swept in telling me he loved me and missed me. He is a charismatic man and knew all the right things to say and before I knew it and against my better judgement, I was on the verge of committing to him again. I am so stupid. Lucky for me, I started to see the inconsistencies in what he was saying and the cracks in the wall. So we fought. Again. He called me some awful names and screamed and yelled about what was wrong with me. I ... told him to be happy.
It was the right thing to do. I never should have thought about going back. I never learn do I? I wanted to believe him and believe that it would be different this time. I just wanted someone to hold me. I wanted to hear someone say "I love you." I know in the long run it will be good it just hurts to be used like that again and for him to misuse the power he has.
The night has ended on a high though. I feel loved and ready for bed. I will explain more tomorrow. I've been sent to bed and I've already stayed up far later than i should have.
Night night all
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Grey
7 years ago
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